Recovery Update #5

There is no trigger warning for this post as I've had a positive week, so grab a cuppa and have a read of what I have been up to...

As you may know from the previous recovery updates of mine, the past few weeks haven't been the best but I've really come out of my shell this past week.

I am battling depression, panic attacks and my Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder everyday and moving forward in recovery, not as much as i'd like but like everything, it takes time and time is on my side at the moment.
Monday I felt like rubbish, I didn't know why, I just did. I managed to leave my bed though which was a achievement. I spent most of the day in bed though due to just being and feeling ill, I had a bad stomach and yeah, i'll spare you the details.
I spent hours online shopping, ready for Payday Friday, Primark was definitely a contender, I just love their products. I had received a gift card for Primark from my cousin for Christmas 2015 and I was in desperate need of a new bag and purse so I spent ages online, but couldn't find one, so I left that until Friday. (Yes, I am going to do a Primark Haul on my other blog so watch out for that, when it's up, it'll be posted on my Twitter so be sure to follow me, I'm @cjoanward_)
Wednesday I went to the 50th Birthday Mass at my primary school (I left there nearly 11 years ago, I feel so old!) and saw so many of my teachers, including my Year 5 teacher who used to tell me off nearly everyday and I really wanted to talk to her so I went over, waited patiently until she turned to speak to my Mum and I. My legs couldn't stop shaking, I was literally petrified, mainly because I hadn't seen her in ages and partly because my anxiety was going mental. Not only was my Year 5 teacher there, my head teacher was there, the secretary attended, my other teachers were there too, it was crazy and so overwhelming, I loved it.
The next day was the Official 50th Birthday of the school. The whole school blew up with happy memories and the children at the school were so enthusiastic about the whole day and we enjoyed the memories of each decade from the 60's until now and also their predictions as to what the future might look like. Two enjoyable days were definitely the best two days ever! 
After my breakdown last week, I was so happy with how this week started and ended.

Fast forward to Friday, PAYDAY!! I had my list of what I needed.
Translucent powder, paracetamol, a necklace, lipstick, a new handbag, a new purse and a McDonald's later, I was back home with a massive hole in my pocket! I haven't been in Primark for ages, so it was quite a rewarding shopping trip! :)

Yesterday I didn't really do much. Tidied my room and went to Morrisons. I had a panic attack as soon as I got there, but carried on as normal and it only lasted 5 minutes so it wasn't too bad. My Nan brought over my clean washing and I was back home ready to watch the Ireland VS Scotland rugby match :)

Today I haven't really got much on. Gonna catch up on the cleaning of the house though as I've been slacking, but yeah :) this week has been so positive!




Miss Catherine x