I've just realised I'm going out on Friday night but it's gonna be with my sister so I'm in safe hands. I booked her tickets for Wannabe Tribute Band in Kettering for her birthday so I'm excited to go with her!!
I also feel like I'm gonna be babysat so much by her which sometimes I don't mind but she has her own problems and also my brother in law will be there so I don't want to have to be a nuisance but they slam doors and everything there.. And I didn't handle it too well last time. I'm hoping I can stay all weekend but I doubt I will be able to stay that long.
The current place I'm living in now is so quiet, there's barely any noise, no one really comes to the house so I feel very safe here, I have another security guard as a housemate which is awesome, he does nights though so I'm gonna have to just get a phone I can use for calls only and just have it as an emergency because this estate isn't the best.
I really want to be able to go somewhere and not have to panic about where I'm going, the amount of noise that I'm gonna hear or the amount of people I'm gonna be around obviously at the concert, it can't be helped really. I just hope I'm stable enough to not have another freaking breakdown like I did last time because someone decided to pretend they had a suspicious package inside their bag which set me off so much, I kept having mini panic attacks during the concert, I jumped at every light, person, noise, it was the worst but I've got us seats at the emergency doors so it'll be all good hopefully. I think last time, I over thought everything and was on guard too much!!
Anyway, I'm still counting down the days until I see my psychiatrist and I'm hoping he's either going to change my medication or up it to make it a little stronger.
Catherine x
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