Going into therapy

Tomorrow, I'm phoning my old counselling service who I've worked with before and going back into therapy. I'm honestly so nervous as I usually see a lady in Kettering but I can't afford going there every week so I'm going to the local one here in Corby, Northamptonshire. I wanted to go into therapy a few months ago but I was already seeing my psychologist so I thought I would let that work first but I had a bad experience with him so I've decided to go into counselling and talk my problems out.
Back when I was 14, I was groomed online, I didn't realise I was a victim to sexual grooming until Loose Women shared their #itsnevertoolate campaign, and I then cried my eyes out when the realisation kicked in. 
I was also raped back in 2014, when I moved house. It was a horrible experience, I again thought it was my fault. So I didn't push for sentencing the person. I was raped again in 2016, when my ex moved in. I was drunk the first time and the CID lady said that it was my fault, but the thing is I didn't give consent and I also didn't say no to it. I didn't give them the proper evidence because I felt so ashamed. 

It's going to be hard work, but it's going to worth it. I'm really excited to start counselling again.