Alcohol Abuse - My Experience - Sober Demi Lovato

I've just listened to Demi Lovato's track called Sober. It's such a great song. These are the lyrics that she sings.. 

I got no excuses
For all of these goodbyes
Call me when it's over
'Cause I'm dying inside
Wake me up when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it's over
And myself has reappeared

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave
And I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely

Momma, I'm so sorry I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me
We've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore

I'm sorry to my future love
For the man who left my bed
For making love the way I saved for you inside my head
I'm sorry for the fans I lost
Who watched me fall again

I wanna be a role model
But I'm only human

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave
And I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely

I got these lyrics from MetroLyrics which you can find

here..

I haven't really gone into how this relates to me at all on my blog. But I used to abuse alcohol to cope with my mental health. I've been sober from alcohol abuse since 2015. I worked in Wetherspoons, behind the bar and used to buy so much alcohol to take home, and just drink. I finally gave up the day after my 19th birthday. I now only drink socially, I don't drink to get drunk, I don't drink to have fun and most importantly, I don't drink to cope with my mental health. It's been such a long and hard road from my drinking days. I have come so far and I'm so happy with my progress. Yes, okay the rare "I could use a vodka right about now" pops into my head and yes I did drink excessively at my work do but that wasn't to cope with my mental health that was because I was enjoying myself for the first time in ages. Massive thank you to Demi for sharing her story in her documentary Simply Complicated on YouTube and now in her songs. 

If you struggle with alcohol abuse too, please be aware there's so much help out there, going to your GP is so worth it.

Catherine x