The title may mean different things to different people, but the reason I have put it like that is because having a mental illness is a full time job for many and it is for me.
Everyday is a struggle. Everyday I think I'm the burden of society and that my problems don't matter compared to other invisible illnesses.
Every morning, I wake with the same demons that left me the night before, sometimes they don't even leave, they keep me awake at night and torture me with their words.
Saying I'm weak, not good enough, that people are out to get me, that my family will get ill if I eat today. So what do I do to cope? I sleep. It's not laziness it's escape from all the voices, from the demons, from people in general.
Having mental health is a full time job, it can stop you in your tracks, my OCD haunts me everyday and the struggle is real, a fake smile is all it takes to cover everything up.
It may be easy for someone to say "get out and do something instead of lying in bed" which is something that is repeated to me many times, so many times. And to be honest, I'm sick and tired of hearing it and trying to think of an answer I haven't given before.
Telling someone with mental health issues that their issues aren't real because they can't see it is like telling a cancer patient the same thing.
Someone with cancer visits hospital to get treatment every month, if a mental health patient went every month into a hospital, it's seen as attention-seeking yet they are treated so well even though Cancer is an invisible illness just like mental illness. They are treated differently. Cancer patients are waited on hand and foot when feeling weak but mental health patients are told to exercise, get some fresh air, meet people.
Mental health is a full-time job, it eats all your energy before you even get out of bed.
The stigma behind mental illness is double, triple, quadruple the size of the stigma behind cancer and it needs to be killed before another person is.
If you or someone you know is suffering from suicidal thoughts or you are worried that they might be planning something, seek help NOW!!
Miss Catherine x
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