Hello all,
I'm back on my blog. There's so much that has happened so I'm gonna do an update on what's been going on.
July 2019, I had just lost my dream job for the second time and I was so suicidal which I explained about in my last post so check it out here.
August was my birthday month. I turned 25, or quarter of a century lol.
September, things at home were getting very tense. I had a massive argument with my boyfriend's sister and her partner over the debt they had the previous year.
October - I was told that the house I was living in and paying rent for, I wasn't allowed to be living there as I wasn't allowed on the tenancy agreement because of the debt they had with the actual tenants.
November, things went downhill in my relationship with my boyfriend and..
December 5th 2019, he called the Police on me due to me apparently being suicidal as I had locked him out of the house. The Police came and persuaded me to go to hospital with them, I was taken there and just left. I knew that there wasn't going to be any support with me, so I ended up walking out after I had my obs done. I was wanting to run away until the security for the hospital found me outside near the road, it took them bout 10 minutes to persuade me to go back in and lied to me saying that the crisis team were there ready to assess me, so I went back in believing them, I was taken back to the side room I was in and the crisis team sent a student out to tell me that it was gonna be a 4 hour wait, so I ran out again and I was met by the security again. Again, went back in with them and I ended up waiting 4 hours, I was eventually seen by them and because I was also homeless too, I was asking for some help with that and they replied "we can't support you with that" so I walked out again, I was again met by the security guards who just let me go. I was picked up by my best friend and I stayed at her house for a night until the next night where I could move into another house share, which I'm still in.
Forward to now, I'm still suicidal but I doubt anything will be done about it especially at the moment so there's no point in asking for help at the moment because the mental health services is a load of shite.
So yeah, that's my update.
What have you been up to since I posted last.
Stay safe..
Catherine x
